Daggers in the Dark: Memoir of a Rape Survivor

In foreign country, at the age of 19, I was drugged and raped several times. Life was never the same. I became an angry volatile young woman in denial about the brutal assaults that had violated me. It was extremely difficult on my family as I had disappeared in a terrifying dark hole. All they could do was love me from a distance as I made decision after decision that were detrimental to my welfare. My choices reflected the negative self-image feelings of worthlessness that spewed from within me. Years later, when I had thought I put all these things neatly away in my mind, a flashback transported me there it was happening to me again. I screamed, "Get the f*** off me!" The stench of his cigarette breath filled the air. I couldn't get this monster off me as drops of salty sweat dripped onto my naked breast. All I could hear was him panting as the bed squeaked. Gasping for air under his body, I looked up. It had been a flashback. My mind decided it was time for me to deal with the trauma of this heinous secret that I had tried to cover up for so many years. My secret had affected almost every part of my life. It tried to rob me of myself. Little did I know, I was about to embark upon a lifelong journey of releasing anger, puddles of tears, discarding the shame and relearning my value. This collection of poems, is a raw uninhibited glimpse into my life as a rape survivor. I hope to inspire more victims and survivors to share their stories. There is power in numbers. You are not a statistic; you are a person. Isn't it time to learn to live in your body again?

• | Author: Christine Matotek
• | Publisher: Independently published
• | Publication Date: November 2, 2019
• | Number of Pages: 113 pages
• | Language: English
• | Binding: Paperback
• | ISBN-10: 1704643244
• | ISBN-13: 9781704643243