Behind These Walls

Behind these walls, it all starts over, new rules, new people, new stress, new food, & a new enviorment. There's time to think, think about things I didn't before, things I hate, things I need, & the reasons I'm here. I'm here for the decisions I & others made. I'm taking the fall for most & doing more time than I ever have & being put down further than I already am, taking disrespect, feeling as if I don't belong & never did, with all the stress building up it's hard not to explode. After being in here for so long I barely know myself, putting on a mask, hiding my emotions, feeling nothing but alone, unappriciated & unreconized. Sometimes I think I'm becoming a society soldier being formed into someone I don't know. Waking up every morning after sleeping like crap, seeing the lights that never turn off, with white brick walls, a metal toilet, a door of my favorite color, sleeping on a concret slab, but I guess it's not that bad. I'm no stranger to moving, I've slept on, ate & been through worse. I've been to the point of no return, but that one thought keeps me pushin, & I'm glad it has, because without it I might not of been here today. With all I've learned & continue to learn I'm starting to see a future, I'm starting to plan, to take control, to form my life. With all the time I've had in here to relax I find it hard, with everything on my mind; my mom, my dad, my future, my failures, & how I'm going to change to creat myself. One of the hardest things is being away from everything I've worked for; my work, my family, my friends, & my future. And behind these walls some just don't understand, what some of us go through, some say we're just reckless kids or we never should have been born, but we're what they don't know is that we're just lost in an ever growing world, always changing, & because of one decision, it can change our lives. So my message to you is; Think before every decision because your time & freedom are the most important things in our lives so don't waste your time & freedom behind any walls besides the ones you built & build.

• | Author: Heidi Mendez Harrison
• | Publisher: Xlibris
• | Publication Date: Jun 08, 2016
• | Number of Pages: 106 pages
• | Language: English
• | Binding: Hardcover/Self-Help
• | ISBN-10: 1514477505
• | ISBN-13: 9781514477502